After eating breakfast, I took my bible and journal outside our home and did my quiet time.
One of CCF’s Dgroup leaders asked us to read through Psalms. As I was reading through it, one verse spoke to me: Psalms 4:4
‘Be angry, and do not sin; ponder in your own hears on your beds, and be silent.’ I have a student study bible. This helps me a lot because at the end of every page, it has a brief explanation of the verses. This verse, as stated by Student Study Bible by Crossway, explains that even if you are angry at those who slander you, do not sin by seeking revenge. To prevent such sin you have to PONDER, BE SILENT, and REFLECT on how trustworthy the Lord has been.
This verse spoke to me because I’ve been holding anger. I don’t want to go into specifics but all I can say is that it’s work related. But it’s been a struggle for me not to feel anger because I was hurt. I’m ashamed to admit this but I’ve been thinking of ways to ‘protect’ myself just in case that person decides to hurt me more. But this verse reminded me that ‘protecting’ myself was similar to seeking revenge and that is not the way Christians handle problems. Even if people slander us, we should not fight back. We should love that person instead. It will be a challenge but instead of fighting back, I should look for ways to fix my relationship with that person.
I need to pray more. HELP ME LORD!